The next step

Hello Blog! It's been a while so let's recap. Uh, I've been sick and I haven’t been doing much of anything as a result. Well! Now that we're all caught up lets get to the big news. In two days I finally get my laser resurfacing. I have always been extremely self conscious about my acne and then my subsequent acne scaring. I lived with it as a male but now it's become intolerable and I'm fucking doing something about it. Rar!

I know I've mentioned this before, but this is a very important step for me. I'm soooooo fucking nervous. Nervous that something might go wrong and my face gets even more screwed up and also nervous that after I've healed it'll hardly makes a difference. (And I'm down four grand. =P) I'm trying to keep my expatiation’s low but if this doesn’t make a big difference in my complexion I don't know what I'm going to do.

I am burning all my vacation time for this, so I will have two weeks where I'll be confined to the house. (Which is a tiny condo under 600 square feet.) I'm hoping that after the first week I won't look like a radiation burn victim anymore and I'll be able to go outside at night to walk around without scaring too many children. I'm going to have to avoid sun exposure like the plague for something like six months after the procedure. I don't mind that too much since I'm pretty nocturnal anyway, but I still like to get out and go hiking and shit so that's going to be annoying.

I haven’t been able to exercise for like a week and I've been eating like crap up until today, and since I'm not supposed to exert myself until two weeks after the procedure I'm trying the weight-watchers “two shakes a day” thing. If it works OK for me I just might keep doing it. Then I can have fish, water and salad for dinner. =) I swear to the godess, after only one week of slacking off I look fatter. =(

So tomorrow after work I'm stocking up on any remaining supplies that I need and then vacation begins! Sort of. Kind of sucks that this will be my vacation for the year, but I have to do it. I plan on cleaning every square inch of the house to maintain my sanity. I'll also watch MST3K, old monster movies, play video games, do lot's of reading and meditate. I have a couple book series that I need to catch up with, so despite the fact that my face is going to be raw, painful and disgusting I'm looking forward to it. By the end though I'll probably be half crazed and desperate to go back to work.

RANDOM NOTE – My cat is snoring loudly right now. It's super cute.

Anyway, in the event that I die for some bizarre reason on the operating table I want everyone to know that I have no regrets and also that the moneys in the. . Blarrrg . . .

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