Dandelions and Snapdragons

This is a poem from my male aspect to my female aspect.  It was formulated in my mind while in guy mode, but I didn't actually write it down until I was in female mode just now.  As a result this brought out a lot of strange, conflicting emotions in me.  I cried very hard writing this, because I was so sad and because I was so happy.

Dandelions and Snapdragons -

It's taken me so long to remember you

Climbing the old willow tree

Jeans ripped at the knees

and covered in fresh grass stains

I scaled the brown branches

And I surveyed all that was mine from my platform in the sky

I saw you looking up at me.

Being awkward and alone

Neither boy nor girl

Unable to fight

or play football

Or relate to anyone I knew

Scared and confused

But you where there all the while

waiting for me to turn around and smile at you

And I never did

The onslaught of adolescence

Ravaging our body

Simple times split asunder

As our world grew darker

You called out for me

pleading

And I ran away as fast as I could

Life is a blur with many points of light

Like silver stars in the sky

But those beacons are few and far between

Suspended in darkness

For so many years you tried to make me see

But you were just a child

and I was a man

And I was terrified of you

And then came the day

When I broke into two

Unable to maintain this quiet facade

Shattered - I had no where left to hide

No place to run

And I could no longer deny

That I saw you

Your long, dirty blond hair

Sky blue eyes

And crooked smile

With jeans still ripped at the knees

Covered in bright green grass stains

I had almost convinced myself that you weren’t real

But you've always been there

Waiting for me

I've hurt you so much and I'm sorry

But this time things will be different

We'll be children again

Running through the woods

The sound of our small feet rhythmically drumming against the earth

Leaping over small creeks

Stopping to check for tadpoles and crayfish

Lying on our backs in the meadow

Hand in Hand

The bright sunlight warming our skin

laughing about nonsense

Watching the clouds drift by lazy

As if we had all the time in the world

For now on we'll be together

I will give you all the time you need

I will nurture and protect you until you grow strong

Forever shall I love you

And when you fall and skin your knee

I will lift you up in my arms

And I will give you a bouquet of

Dandelions and Snapdragons